Thank you for sharing. Knowing these things will help me see you in a better light, more human, layered. Your an amazing person. You've recently accomplished a lot to be proud of. Your killing it with your music, keep killing it girl.
Writing things is therapeutic, music happens to have massive returns the more you explore it. You explored a lot with this song. It's both playful and scary. Wonderful patches, bubbles, incredible orchestration, children laughing... those creeping bass tones... OHHHH SHIIITTTT sorry 2:29 just hit. I'm getting Burnham levels of introspection and existential dread. Like, should I be laughing right now or am I in legit danger? Nope, I'm in danger. This is incredible Milk. Only problem, I can't listen to the music while reading the story and vice versa, stimuli overload. Very intense piece of work worth returning to. These melodies can become soul melodies that you can lean into for years, perfect, play forwards and backwards, and they will always mean something to you. The perfect melody gets better every time you hear it or every time you play it.
I turned 33 on the 9th, recently loaded a GBA emulator to my tablet to play Ruby and FF Tactics. Screens are like pacifiers, you can unhealthily cope inside of them as much as you can with alcohol or drugs, but at least it won't kill you. Depression on the other hand can kill you, sorry that's a morbid fact. I love hearing your music because making things is a healthier side of screens. You make very healthy music.
*starts rubbing hands together while staring at your music*
You should go write some more music. I swear this is not manipulation, go write some music for the people but also remember to write music for yourself. You deserve to write whatever you want. You are a golden god. You are an ox. You are a bloody mastodon. Tanks look at you and say "oh my god, we're doomed." Chuck Norris is a very old man, you could probably kick his ass now but you could also probably kick his ass when he was in his prime. You are a warrior. You are unstoppable.
*...rubs hands again...*