Age 35, ♀ she/her
Alfred University
Groundhog Lake, Colorado
Joined on 5/30/05
i really loved reading this post. i wish you the absolute best in things, though we don't know each other. I am also in a strange place balancing my absolute dream of a love life with nurturing creative ambition.
we as trans people can find our definition of success and happiness -- no one can really prevent that, despite the efforts. keep living your best life <3
Y tu Caterpillar! Thank you for stopping by and having a stroll through the words. I love it when people enjoy the intimate stuff, good luck in all your ambitions!
@Quarl Well I'm just not capable of such intelligent decisions (had my shuffle playlist in the background and it was getting to the good part and I didn't want to pause it abruptly) :p
Listening to them now, except Dare, I've already looped that one a lot in the past.
Dated a girl in college that loved Gorillaz, every few years I remember they exist and dive back in. Cracker Island has been getting lots of plays <3
Y'know, music has also become like my therapy, and now here I am also making my own. I'm a rock music person rather than pop, but I like both genres, and love seeing that you stayed on Newgrounds. This site is absolutely full of talented people going nowhere, but there ain't anything like it, I tells ya.
Can I get a witness?
Amen Nostalgia! I'll give your tunes a listen in the morning, 4:22 in the morning cuddled up right now :3
Feels like summer is a vibe, listened to it a lot when it came out and when it shows up in my soundcloud shuffle it takes me back to that time.
My favorite Gorillaz song is Do Ya Thang :)
I wish everyone who says to succeed you need to get off newgrounds a very jacket gets caught on a door handle. Newgrounds is a great place to grow, and you can always branch out to more marketable platforms while still coming home to daddy fulp
Just put on Do Ya Thang, Gorillaz are an entire groove, their own sound. I'm genetically unable to get off Newgrounds, my entire body refuses to make a Spotify because one or two people were like "THEY HATE ARTISTS, CORPO SCUM, POOP." Was like, "valid arguement. I'm convinced." This is my weird home :3
Very nice the selection of music you have to recommand and I also truly hope you and your husband keep up having an excellent life full of hapiness and good opportunities like in the music industry.
Everyday we reaffirm our love for each other. I'm so lucky to have found my soul mate. I really wish that everyone could be so lucky.
I honestly relate to this post a lot. There gets to a point in life where you may sometimes want to hide yourself away, so you kind of stop speaking. Not even because you're hurt, but because you're burnt out with everything. However, the constant reminder that life goes on and that there is always something happening is a major reason for hiding too. we often retreat to things that'd make us feel less alone during moments like this, Whether that be creating art, or something else. It's like going into a tunnel, it's a bit lonely, but as you keep moving forward, you start to gain a new appreciation/understanding for the things you once enjoyed. And that may inspire new interests too, or things that you've been wanting to get into.
I relate to getting into things you didn't think you would have. Pop music is rad. Lately i've been getting into building gunpla, i've always wanted to try it, so right around my 21st i bought a few sets, found myself in a rabbit hole and got inspired to try doing stop motion for again for the first time since middle school.
I think i've lost track of where i'm going with this. But to end this response off, we all need a break every once in awhile, I wish you all the best in this life. Take care, it's always a pleasure seeing your posts on here.
Ps. two door cinema club is fire
Thank you for stopping by Schatten! Feel free to lose track of anything when visiting these blogs, I love seeing essays. People have deep feelings and memories, so many will one day be lost because they were never written down or they were deemed unimportant. Imagine, 50,000 years from now when the cockroach people send their archaeologists to excavate the human civilization ruins and they find an old, technologicaly primitive machine. They boot it up, check the cookies, and find us here talking about Two Door Cinema Club. They respond by touching their antanea and trading thoughts via electrical signals. We could never hope to comprehend the machinations of the superior cockroach race but at least when they look down on us they'll know that for a brief moment we were here and we liked music ❤️
Heya, I just read this and wanted to say I can very much relate to the feeling burnt out on socializing and music being a solitary experience. I'm in the middle of something similar, I think, so it's nice to read about the silver linings and good things you have going, and also that you're still keeping up with music. I know for me having the creative outlet makes such a difference — some of the music I make is practically journaling. And I wasn't aware of your bandcamp! I think I'll have a browse/listen through later today. (Also if you ever do want an appreciative ear for something you made, feel free to send a message, I would love to hear it!)
Also wanted to say I love Why iii Love the Moon, I listened to it all the time the first time I found it years ago. In fact I was constantly listening to RnB and jazz and adjacent genres around 2015–2018, so it's been a while, and listening to one of my favorites again definitely/unexpectedly brightened my Sunday :)
Woohoo, I love the moon has been doing great things with my algorithm playlist when I put it on. I'm glad this was able to revive some memories!
I've seen journaling come up in therapy adjacent topics, it's healthy. Had a professor recommend publishing blog content ages ago as a means to pursue art and music. Each song gives you a chance to take stock of things. No idea if anyone reads the stuff I leave on songs but we're leaving little breadcrumbs. Sometimes people will leave reviews on songs I wrote 20 years ago... any reason you switched up your accounts? I've made new ones over the years to try to rebrand and experiment but I always go back to Quarl... if you told me before than sorry for asking again, was just curious <3
@Quarl I don't think I ever told you! My old username was derived from my deadname and it had been a really long time since I posted to that account. So posting to that account again didn't feel right. I could have changed the username on that account, but then anyone out of the loop wouldn't be able to find that account anymore. And I liked the idea of starting over and leaving the old account as it was (mostly) to sort of memorialize who I was and the music I made and the experience I had here.
I missed this one again, but I miss you! We haven't talked proper in forever, and I don't go on Facebook enough to really see what you're up to...Will miss those Jamuary tracks this year, but I also totally understand how something like that can burn you out for a good long while too.
Sending warmth and hugs your way!
Aw, thanks dear! Hugs and warmth received, catalogued, laminated, and filed away for safe keeping. I logged onto Discord the other day to help Tom with something and had a mild heart attack when I saw all the notifications. I've found alot of peace away from social media. Tom says hi, just now he said hi! Been thinking about you, nothing weird though. Just random thoughts like "hope she's doing ok" and "I wonder how many shineys Dan has caught."
@Quarl Danny has caught so many shinies, my god. I think time away from social media is about the best thing a person can possibly do for themselves these days tbh. I’ve got an awful lot of anxiety about the next 10 years or so, but I feel like all I can really try to do is make the best of it, and try to make a little home in all the chaos.
We should still talk proper sometime soon though! I wanna see more photos of the stars and see how your studio’s coming along too!
If I get approved for the 30 year anniversary audio collab I'll be logged in to do some audio stuff, I'll let you know on Discord when I'm plugging away. Will have to tear myself away from Forspoken though, I've been grinding away at it. Realized I could collect cats in that game and now I'm hooked.
Leavesz
"a fact I usually wait until a few paragraphs into a blog to mention because I know the average Newgrounds user can't read."
Lol. I might not be the average NG user then. I do like reading your posts, they've gotten so indifferent in a good way.
Coincidentially I've been listening to more "pop" music lately too. After 2 years of blasting underground garbage every second of the day mainstream music became something I can honestly appreciate, it is so refreshing and I feel stupid for consciously ignoring it so much. I might listen to these recs later if I don't forget (although I'm really likely to just forget).
Good luck with life, I hear that can be difficult sometimes.
Quarl
Thanks Leavesz! I'm impressed you read all that and didn't think to just play the tunes in the background. The music isn't going to be to everyone's taste but I've come to appreciate the kind of music that slowly endears itself to you. Having the intimacy to share it with someone close is the best feeling, save these tunes for when you have that too! You're young friend, enjoy life :]